snowing in lincoln!

It is here!...
luckily for us, it snowed friday afternoon and the whole saturday....we just have to be at home and drink hot chocolate...or just plain milk cause neither emily or sophie drinks their milk in any other way.......

Saturday afternoon i got a "great idea" and decide to get the christmas tree...it wasn't snowing that hard anymore, but the streets were busy and dirty....so, we just have to dress appropriate and go for it! besides, the tree will keep emily and sophie busy the hole sunday!

Now "getting" the tree was another story....First we went shopping cause Menards (the tree store) was just next to the market.....so, after a couple of hours getting everything we need, it was already getting dark when we went next to choose our tree.....

When we got into the store i realize i made a mistake, i was suppose to go to Ace harward center, where they have hundreds of trees to choose from (last year toke us like an hour to get "the perfect one"-plus a cold cause it was freezing that night)....

This time there were just maybe 20 trees....tree for each type/size, most of them my size :(, we needed something bigger, and from those there were just 6 to choose......it took me like 10 minutes to get one and go home....i was feeling frustrated for being in the wrong store, worried about the time, worried about the cold, and worried how in hell am i going to bring it home on my own (almost on my own cause my mom can't lift anything-doctor's orders- since 10 years ago-she uses that frase every time she can).....
anyway, the people at Menards help me get my tree into the car, but guess what???...they CAN NOT and DON"T HAVE anything to secure the tree in the car...i was the one to bring something for that! and of course i didn't...

Then the tree went from the top off my car to the inside, and i am talking of a 8-9 (whatever the measurement is....)....the back door didn't close....my mom on front, my kids at the back and my tree holding somewhere outside.....Well, if this is how it was suppose to be, then BE IT! i want to go home!....and i started driving, verrryyy slowwwlllyyyy.....
I shake in every little hill, worried about my door getting way open and scare the hell to the car in the back.....but it didn't happen, mostly because no car stayed to long on the back of my car, i was going at around 20 miles....

When we got home, next was getting the tree inside...my mom had to forget about doctor's orders.....she really like the tree....and wanted start the decorations....

Once inside, the tree......didn't fit...So we had to choop around 10-15 cm and yea!!!!! we had a beautifull tree!

We put some lights, the they didnt work, we got new lights and extra long cause the tree was huge, even more when it got all open.....but beautiful indeed....and smell great! that is why i love this trees....

After getting home, emily and sophie had some fun in the snow....and all sunday morning they sled in the driveway, it was nice!

And the best of all is that we are not having so much cold here in lincoln, we are still around 30-40F, during the day, and it is december! how amazing is that!

....check!

Yes, i know, it is already winter!

as always, time is consumed by something else than living life....

These months has been the hardest but full of achievements...

This semester i took a class, just one class, to feel some fulfillment, to know i could do it, to sense it was possible......and foremost because it was free!

I still dont know if it was worth or not......yes, i learn a lot, yes i got an excellent grade, yes it is possible......but i miss the time with my girls, i was feeling more tired after work, i didn't read to them as much as before, i said the word "later" more often......i promised not to take another class because of that, i feel it is not my time anymore, it is theirs......but again, that was yesterday, today i feel "lets try another one", maybe this time with no grade, just go and listen....but if i am going to go, why waste it! lets get a grade!...uhmmmm, not very sure yet, but not much time to think about it, the dishes don't wait, the food doesn't cook by themselves (still i can think doing those chores), but reading to my kids, checking emily's homework, the bills, the doctor, bla, bla, bla, occupy my mind most of the time......and my job! yes! my job....so many tasks, so little time......but, lets go to the fun part! my ninias!
This summer emily was busy busy, she took swimming lessons, piano lessons and at some point even ballet classes! the best of all it is that she now knows how to swim!, she is a little achiever, it didnt took to much time for her, she just tried so much, and when she realize she could swim on her own, she kept doing it.....we drop the ballet classes, it wasn't as fun as swimming. i wanted to try ballet cause i dont want her to swim in winter, but since she prefer to swim, that was good enough for me to keep her excercising....We kept the piano lessons, my dear friend told me that kids have to learn to play one instrument during school, so for know we are doing piano, and yes, WE both are learning to play piano because also my friend told me that even when they choose another kind of instrument or even sing, it is a great help to accompany them with the piano.....so there is another check on my list..... my little sophie...... for her i mostly have to thank my mom, she has been here for the past 2 months and even when it just feels like it has been so little time, i thank God for the help and for have my little sophie free of cold, i almost got accustom to see her with a runny nose all the time, and coughing....but (knock on wood) she has been cold free for a while now.....she had have colds, but just the normal kind, just for a week and that was all....what a great feeling.....

she also has been learning to talk more and more!....like: come here, oh my God!, there you go eminy, no kelo-no quiero (i don't want), a you ok?, can i hep?, etc, etc, etc....

but the best of aalllll!!!! ta,ta,ta, ta!!!!!! (drums please) she is FULLY POTTY TRAINED!!!! weeee!!!!!! she has been for a while now, on summer she wanted to use underware just as emily.......she had a couple of accidents (we have wood floors now!) but after few days she was running on her own to the bathroom, well she does this "ON HER OWN" all the time, so it wasn't to hard.....but it took a little more after she try to poop on the potty too, for that i have to thank her pre-school, my sussane catch her in the act and run her to the toilet, a couple of weeks like that she was ready......

And let me tell you this Potty traing bussiness it is something mayor, hugggeee for me, with sophie i am taking about weeks what for emily took years.....i feel good not expending more money in diapers, butttt (of course nothing is perfect) now she doesn't want to pee on her diaper at night!, she wakes up and call me once or twice, everyday......of course i complain! who wouln't it?????........when you almost think you will get a full night sleep, there comes "mommmm, peeeeepeeee", and them "mommmm, waterrrr", and if i don't give her water, she will scream......then i will give her more water, and then she will pee....oh well, i wanted her to be potty trained right?????

Learn the hula.....check!

Learm jupm rope....check!

next on the list....survive winter!

Dialagos part1

Prolog: Since what it looks to be forever, emily has been anxious and extremely careful of people around her, sometime it feels good and sometimes...reeeaaalllllyyyy!!!!, just go down to the slide, or the door is there please emily just go!!!!....and here is what happended from few simple words of an encouraging mother to her daughter...

Emily: wait mommy!!!! please don't leave me!....(after just getting out of the car)....

Mommy: thinking when is she going to grown up her fears....Never! i said, I will always be with you, always always always! (while hugging her with all my love....) Even when you married with a nice boy, i will be with you, i will live in your bassement and i am going to take care of your 10 children (she has told me that before....)

Emily: ....she smile...but mommy! i don't have a bassement!....(of course, mentioning about having 10 children is out of discusion.......)
Mommy: When you know a nice boy and get married (yes, always repeating nice boy i hope it will get stock in her mind if i tell her over an over....) i am goong to live with you....

three days later....

Emily: Mommy i know a nice boy, his name is Chase.....but is not Chase Cummings, is Chase McGee......He is 12, but he is short for his age......

Mommy: .....(what?????.....is he irish????......already????.....ok, just kids right?)

a week later after a field trip to the omaha zoo.....

Emily: Mommy, Chase and I got married, i ask him if he wanted to be a daddy and he said "OK!".....

Mommy: .....(what??????...i always though emily was shy.....uhmmmmm, maybe i was mistaken.....wait a second, married!!!!).....ok emily, tell me, when, where, why, who (again), details, details......

Emily: ugggg...i told him to married me and he said OK mommy....

Mommy: just Ok, what else....

Emily: nothing....(and getting anoyed of all the questioning)....

Mommy: (ok i see, i will let it go...)sooo, you went to the zoo right?...

Emily: yes, and i hold Chase hand.....and now he is a daddy (a daddy=a husband)

Mommy: (ok i need to talk something else cause Chase seems to be everywhere...)

next monday....we are walking to school and a little boy runs to open the door for us..

Emily: Daddy!!!!!!Mommy, he is daddy......

Mommy: (i said thank you to the boy and try to be fast in my mind to said something....) so you are Chase right?

Chase: Yes.....lets go emily.....

Mommy: (and that was it! well he is polite....and cute.....and they seem to be friends....and...ok stop, they are just children and playing.....but for some reason my heart pump for my little one, feeeling worried/secure watching her growing.....then me leaving in a basement full of children, it is going to happen, i hope not to soon and not too late, i am not that young......and also a Chase .......i guess i need to keep saying NICE BOY more frecuently......

Epilog:

two weeks later after seen on TV that you can ask for a wish if you see "flying stars"...

Emily: Mommy i wish we have those stars here in lincoln so i can ask that Chase McGee will live with us because he is going to be my daddy.....

Mommy: emily just caught me writing and ask me why i was writing about Chase McGee.....i am not pretending to be intrude but i need to write to remmember all the details about you.....i really didn't said that, i just told her i am writing what she told me because i am making a letter too (she was writing one)......she smiled and kept doing her letter....my angel, i love you so much....

VBS-Pandamania

This year, as the last one, emily and now sophie went to Vacation Bible School at College View Adventist Church....

I love to go there because i think it is the best place for little ones to learn about God, and as always they did learn a lot and had fun!.....GOD MADE YOU.....THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

Sophie is always where ever she wants to be....nothing stops her....and she is not afraid to be on her own....GOD LISTENS TO YOU.....THANK YOU GOD!!!!


Emily is not like that....but even when sometimes i want her to be more open and less scare, i understand her and stay with her if she needs me.....GOD WATCHES OVER YOU...THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

At the end she had fun and wanted to stay on her own with her new friends.....i did realize that because we miss so many times going to church, she may had been afraid of so many new faces...i didnt see it like that at the beegining....GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT...THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

Everyday all the smaller kids went in front to sing the opening song.....and everyday Sophie was there in the first row, as well as the last day when all the kids came to sing together...GOD GIVES GOOD GIFTS.....THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

Emily.....she didnt want to go to the front not even once.....but she did dance on her place, at her own peace.....

The last day the only thing she had in mind was: How can God watch ALL OF US!....God must be sooo big.....I didnt have an answer for that, i just told her like the song they sing everyday, God is GREAT, He is AWESOME!!!!

mas tarde...

Six months and no writing!! you can tell i have been working....or better said, learning....

It feels like a just woke up from a long dream.....

my mind is open, my soul is crystal clear, my heart is pumping.....

it is an extrange feeling.....

it also seems like i have been place on a dream.....

and just like that, a new season is comming....

new home, new hopes......new feelings....

please don't weak me up......